You’ll Never Be Ready

Over the past few years, I’ve turned into a vivacious reader. I didn’t care at all about reading growing up. Just enough to get me by in school and in college. Only required reading was on my list to study. But lately, I’ve been devouring everything from audio-books to eBooks, books borrowed from the library, books given to me by friends and family, and everything in between. I just can’t get enough.

This morning, as I was reading from a prayer book I’ve already completed at least 3 times, I stumbled across a passage about being ready. The writer can be paraphrased as saying, “If you’re looking for excuses, you’ll always find one…You’ll never be ready for anything God calls you to do…he doesn’t call the qualified…he qualifies the called.” – (Mark Batterson, Draw the Circle)

The reason why I bring this up today is that I never feel like I’m ready for anything of significance I’ve done in my life. Ready to have kids? Nope. Ready to get married? Not 100%. Ready to own a home? Uh…. Ready to quit your job and be a stay-at-home mom? What? Now? Ready to be a writer? Okay now, I think you’ve taken things a little too far here. A writer? I was terrible in English and I have a Marketing degree. 

I wasn’t ready for anything of these things and I’m still not ready for things that I’m currently working on, but if I waited until I was legitimately ready things would never happen in my life.

Don’t wait until all of the pieces fall magically into place. You’ll be waiting a lifetime for that to happen. Keep doing life and listening to that small voice inside of you saying, “I know it’s scary, but you’re not alone. You can do this. It’s time for you to believe in yourself as much as I do.”


Making Amends

I didn’t understand this concept until my husband started with his list. There were events from the past, stuff from the present, and many things he hadn’t thought about in a long, long time. I think I’ve done this list, mentally and without a sponsor, for a while now. Let’s just say, left unsupervised and without a plan, this process can be very messy!

I’ve had things come into my mind here and there, but I ignore them or pretend they don’t really need my attention. Ha…as you can imagine, this doesn’t end well for anyone.

I’m in the process now of making my own amends. It’s hard. It sucks at times, but at the end of the day…knowing I’ve done the right thing beats the hell out of any uncomfortable feelings I have dealing with my past.

So I wish you luck in making your own amends. You can do it. Faith over fear. Don’t let that nasty monster fear take control of your life. You can do it! I can do it! 

Oh, and happy new year!